Healing is in layers and levels we need to be gentle with ourselves. At times we are born into families to only be the ones to break all patterns that has been in a family for generation, the black sheep of the family is indeed a golden sheep that is here  now to heal the family blueprint and break it cruses and start a new blueprint for themselves begin health wealth career love. 
At times one may experiences traumas to the souls physical body which will cause later on illness in the body if one won't work Thur the trauma so the soul can be free from all traumas .

At times in life we only have trust in ourselves to be the leader of our story and that its ok to rewrite the story for ourselves the way we desire it. Are you ready to rewrite your story?